Thursday, May 1, 2008
Is it me or the idea of me?
It's been a while. I have been really busy lately and haven't had much time to myself. School's busy, finding time to workout, hanging out with new guy, apartment hunting....I miss me. I am one of few people who actually enjoys solitude. I crave it. I need time to decompress and unwind after the day. Sunday is my day. I can go the whole day without talking to anyone and I'm okay with that. I don't get these people who can't spend time alone. How can you spend your time with someone else if you can't even spend time alone and enjoy it? Having someone new in my life has changed my routine. I like spending time with him, but I still need my alone time. He is having a hard time understanding that. He wants to see me or talk to me all the time. Certain friends are saying that I should want to spend all of my time with him. Really? This coming from those who spend every minute with their S.O. and then wonder why they have the "I need some space" conversation?!?! It's great having someone who wants to see me all of the time, but he needs to understand that I'm not giving up myself for him. I still need to see my friends, go out dancing, watch t.v. on the couch, and go to bed at 8 sometimes. We have a great time together and I like him, but it's still hard having someone who is so upfront about what he wants and what he thinks about me. In the back of my mind is the question that was once asked of me, "Is it really me, or the idea of me?" For now, I'm having fun and I think time will eventually answer these questions.
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i know what you mean and you should maybe just set days of the week in which you do not see him. Try living with someone. His family is in town right now and I do not have on second to myself or alone with him. it is killing me. And I am more excited about the sex and the city movie than anyone!! I can't wait. see you sat
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